What they say

Every time I go home for school break, my Dad will always remind me

I never really get to know what he means until recently

I believe in every relationship, be it friendship, intimate etc etc

It is always based on a reciprocal equation to achieve an equilibrium

Just like the saying, 'It takes two to tango'

Both party has to contribute in order to sustain the equation

So what if I accidentally gave more than I should and worse still, did not receive the equivalent amount back from the other party

Like, you probably gave in all but received barely anything in return

Naturally you'd feel disappointed and of course, hurt

'Why does he/she treat me so cold? I care so much for him/her'

If you've that kind of expectations, then you're wrong

Very wrong indeed

You can't expect everyone to think the same

Just because they didn't treat you the way you want, doesn't mean that they don't care for you

I admit that I made the same mistake

Because I also, was having expectations

I'm not a very nice person to begin with

Yet still hoping people to befriend me, very stupid huh? X)

But I softened after reading these:

I wanted people to treat me nice, wanted them to be my friends

So I treated them nice (as how I perceived it) and befriended them X)

I don't want them to ignore me, so I make sure I greet them

You see, it's not a natural thing but somewhat seems like an ulterior motive isn't it?

Terrible me =]

There's a saying in Buddhism:

Look around you

How many past-life's amount of smiles have you encounter to have them as friends?

I've too little things in life that matters to me

When one of them is taken, my natural reflex was to get it back like a child who lost his favourite toy

Then throw a tantrum when things didn't go my way

It is so unsightly

If you're still being so narrow-minded, you'll just behave like a child for your entire life

You're unable to see the broader picture because your world is just so small

It is time for me to change =)

Some day, I will set foot to the outside world

To broaden my view and experience things that are beyond my imaginations

To climb the tallest mountain and to travel across the cruel desert

And I hope when the day comes, I'll have a bigger heart

With a wider perspective and have more things in this world that I can hold on to

That I can look back and say proudly,

"It's not that hard. I finally did it!"





Sorry for the long babbling X)

Raya hols

2nd week just ended!!

Gosh, I'm so glad ><

Gonna have 9 days away from ward ward, TBLs, Seminars etc etc

Not that I've any plans upcoming but who would complain of extra holidays wakakakakaka XDD

Will take this opportunity to rest well

(macamlah Psychiatry so much work like that -.-)

I'm stuck in Seremban till school reopens but that's the least of my concern at the moment

Ah, I already have my to-do list filled up X)

Hopefully I'll be able to pace things up and everything is as planned :D

(I think I've the potential to be an otaku, seriously)

Therefore, tonight I shall indulge myself a bit in the celebration mood of Raya's eve XDD

(Just finding an excuse to be lazy)

30 minutes left to the big day!!

Selamat Hari Raya, my Muslim friends!!

Lemangs and Rendang are waiting for you ><

Wish you guys could see the fireworks display outside my window right now X)

To the non-muslims, have an enjoyable holiday X)

Psych-ed!

First week of Psychiatry posting just ended!

Wouldn't exactly say that it's fun and all

But it's really interesting to see a real case of Schizophrenia

(Typical medical student, other people's misery = one's excitement)

There are not many patients left in the wards, since the Raya celebration is coming soon

Most of them would go home to their family for the festival

Well, not all of them are that uncontrollable la

Few of them actually are quite pleasant to talk to

The presentations we seen so far ranges from the very minor

Time disorientation

Or they might creep up to you suddenly and make random comment

Of course, there are also those who are really not approachable

They will simply ignore you and continue to be in their own world ie. talking to the wall, wandering around etc

Only managed to see 3 cases, all of them having Schizophrenia

Still a lot of things need to read up on

And so that's my current life X)

Been quite nerdy lately wakakakakaka XDD

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I seriously wonder if one day I'll bump into this situation

I'm just kidding, no offense meant here :D

Part and parcel

You know in life that you'd never get everything you want

Even when you're a kid, you know better not to touch a flying object

As you grow older, you slowly learn to handle things through trial and error

And when you succeeded, you would feel happy even without a praise

Because the joy behind is simply indescribable X)

Sometimes I wish I'm still a kid

So that I'd be not afraid of taking chances

To be so honest in your own feelings

To be able to let out everything without holding back

To be able to cry, laugh, scream like no one's looking

And to say out loudly what I really wish for

There's no one stopping me, you'd say

I know that perfectly well as you do

Yet I still choose to let it swell within me

Yes, it's very stupid

Anyway I'm not a smart person to begin with X)

Or is it pathetic to hope for something that will never happen?

Perhaps it's time for me to let it go

After all, it is part of life to know when to give up

Although it might be a little bit too late in this case

I'm still hoping that it might make some changes

Even at its slightest bit

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It's a series of old comic strips I drew last time...so it might not make much senses

I'm just re-using them here LOL XDD

I know I'm lazy

Or maybe deep in my heart

I'm just too tired

Too tired in sustaining that hope

I give up =)

You sad, me not happy

Me know me lacking updates again

But me didn't disappear, no worries people

Me been busy working on this thing

And now that it's complete

She happy, me happy too :D

And she say me can share it with you guys.

So me good girl here to share :D

Me will appreciate if you drop some comments XDD

Thank you very muchie!


P.S: A week has passed, that means my holidays is getting shorter...Bugger!

Of Inception

Just watched Inception today

I know I'm seriously outdated, don't give me the look ><

The total 2.5 hours was really worthwhile

And the story was mind-blowing

Thank God for the warning beforehand, I managed to follow the story till the end

Have never waste so much brain energy just to watch a movie ><

Alas, it was really nice X)

They should include this in the must-watch list of 2010 movies XDD

Some points to ponder upon

Wouldn't it be really cool if you can actually control your dreams

For instance, the kiasu people will be able to revise zillion times in just one night (since 5 minutes equals to an hour in the reality)

Or you could hack into the lecturer's mind to dig what is coming up in exams

Otherwise, just dig out the deepest, darkest secret then blackmail them with it MUAHAHAHAHA!!

And for those villains out there, there's no need to world domination since you can actually do it by just dozing off

Low crime rate, world peace, everyone happy

Now then, you'll need a 'totem' too

Cobb has a top, Ariadne uses a chess piece

Hmm, now what should I use

*deep thoughts*


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Ouch!

Caught red-handed!

Just go watch it la people X)

High retreat

I know, I know

It's been a while since my last update

Sorry, was busy for the exams preparations

But have no fear

Because we finished exams on last Thursday!!

HOORAY!!!

Genting plan was ON wheeeeee~

First time going on outdoor theme park, I've to admit that some of the rides scared me a bit >.>

Didn't know there was height restriction in certain games too -___-

Damn it!!

Nonetheless, it was really fun

Cool weather plus cool people equal total awesomeness

We had the drinking session at night

Here comes the signs of alcoholism:


#1: Delirium

#2: Extreme hyperness and change of behaviour

#3: Denial

#4: Desperate in staying alert

Well, it's always good to experience something new

But next time if I have the choice

Can we book more rooms instead?

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Having all of them in one room is quite scary ><

LOL!!


Don't tell them I said that :D

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Happy holidays, folks!!