What they say

Every time I go home for school break, my Dad will always remind me

I never really get to know what he means until recently

I believe in every relationship, be it friendship, intimate etc etc

It is always based on a reciprocal equation to achieve an equilibrium

Just like the saying, 'It takes two to tango'

Both party has to contribute in order to sustain the equation

So what if I accidentally gave more than I should and worse still, did not receive the equivalent amount back from the other party

Like, you probably gave in all but received barely anything in return

Naturally you'd feel disappointed and of course, hurt

'Why does he/she treat me so cold? I care so much for him/her'

If you've that kind of expectations, then you're wrong

Very wrong indeed

You can't expect everyone to think the same

Just because they didn't treat you the way you want, doesn't mean that they don't care for you

I admit that I made the same mistake

Because I also, was having expectations

I'm not a very nice person to begin with

Yet still hoping people to befriend me, very stupid huh? X)

But I softened after reading these:

I wanted people to treat me nice, wanted them to be my friends

So I treated them nice (as how I perceived it) and befriended them X)

I don't want them to ignore me, so I make sure I greet them

You see, it's not a natural thing but somewhat seems like an ulterior motive isn't it?

Terrible me =]

There's a saying in Buddhism:

Look around you

How many past-life's amount of smiles have you encounter to have them as friends?

I've too little things in life that matters to me

When one of them is taken, my natural reflex was to get it back like a child who lost his favourite toy

Then throw a tantrum when things didn't go my way

It is so unsightly

If you're still being so narrow-minded, you'll just behave like a child for your entire life

You're unable to see the broader picture because your world is just so small

It is time for me to change =)

Some day, I will set foot to the outside world

To broaden my view and experience things that are beyond my imaginations

To climb the tallest mountain and to travel across the cruel desert

And I hope when the day comes, I'll have a bigger heart

With a wider perspective and have more things in this world that I can hold on to

That I can look back and say proudly,

"It's not that hard. I finally did it!"





Sorry for the long babbling X)