Opposite of desserts

Have you ever look back at your life

And ask yourself: What the hell am I doing here?

You know at times like this

No matter how many deep breaths I've taken

The anxiety is still there

I can't explain to you the amount of stress I'm experiencing

Because then you'd laugh at me

And that would be the very last thing I need at the moment

I tried motivating myself everyday

Telling myself to not give up

To persevere on until you reach the destination

But you know

As stale as it sounds, words repeated so many times kinda make you feel numb too

It's not helping that every morning when I wake up, my to-do list is equally as much

I don't see the end of this, a bit disheartening I guess

Weekends are like luxury now

I feel trapped

Trapped within the walls that I couldn't see

And it's getting suffocating in there

I wanna break free from all this

Wanna escape to a place where no one knows me

Wanna run like I never did

Till my legs gave in and just pengsan in the middle of the road

Wanna laugh at my craziness

Wanna ignore what tomorrow has for me

Ah, what am I talking about

All this madness will never happen


Or did it?

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Hmm, maybe I'm delusional :D