Opposite of desserts

Have you ever look back at your life

And ask yourself: What the hell am I doing here?

You know at times like this

No matter how many deep breaths I've taken

The anxiety is still there

I can't explain to you the amount of stress I'm experiencing

Because then you'd laugh at me

And that would be the very last thing I need at the moment

I tried motivating myself everyday

Telling myself to not give up

To persevere on until you reach the destination

But you know

As stale as it sounds, words repeated so many times kinda make you feel numb too

It's not helping that every morning when I wake up, my to-do list is equally as much

I don't see the end of this, a bit disheartening I guess

Weekends are like luxury now

I feel trapped

Trapped within the walls that I couldn't see

And it's getting suffocating in there

I wanna break free from all this

Wanna escape to a place where no one knows me

Wanna run like I never did

Till my legs gave in and just pengsan in the middle of the road

Wanna laugh at my craziness

Wanna ignore what tomorrow has for me

Ah, what am I talking about

All this madness will never happen


Or did it?

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Hmm, maybe I'm delusional :D

Restless

Yes, I know this blog's been dead for quite a while

Forgive me for my long absence ><

Sad to say, this will continue on for some time until I finish my obligated duties

Sigh

There's a lot of things going on since my last update, and it's too hassle to point out one by one here

But rest assured, they all happened for the better purposes X)

At least that's how I would like to think it as

Been keeping touch with a friend lately, and I'm really amazed at how much a person's life can differ when they are in overseas

Compared to her, I feel so much like a child

I can't imagine the stress she's going through, and I really salute her for being able to make it through

I highly doubt I can function as well in that kind of situation

Life is like flying a kite

When you pull it with full force, it's likely that your string would break

So don't ever think that you're having full control in whatever you're doing

Gonna start 3rd week posting in Ortho tomorrow

Sadly, I've yet to enjoy this posting as how the previous group put it

Maybe it's because I still haven't get a hang of it

There's so many things going on at the same time

CFCS, Research papers, EOP and also the theory papers for 2 postings

Damn

24 hours is simply not enough

It's only a matter of time that I fell off my chair and pengsan for real

And I shall not be surprised even when the day comes

UGH!!

I want holidays!!!!